Well, i'm not going to go into it here and now. Let's just say that I got it wrong, or at least I did the wrong thing. I find it odd that I am the kind of person that can be so passionate about music, my band and those close to me and yet I can be so indifferent to the rest of my life. It's like a weird sort of tunnel-vision that means I am sometimes more of a spectator to my antics than you are.