I am finding it harder and harder to switch off. I hit the ground running as soon as i wake up...my mind is still racing when i'm trying to sleep. You know what the funny thing is?? I really, really like it. Something in me thrives when things are moving forward - sometimes I see my life like this oil tanker..I'm trying to get it moving and facing in the right direction, but it just seems to be taking forever. I am pushing harder than ever now and it's still only just thinking about moving.

A lot of my friends will be back from university over Christmas and they'll ask how i'm doing. I try and be as quick and concise as possible - I don't like being the boring guy that only ever talks about what he's doing, however i do still seem to end up hearing him talking while my mouth moves.

I don't envy any of my friends. I love them all and am really proud of them for being good people and doing good things, but I don't envy them anything. I'm sure they feel exactly the same way about me....from the outside I swear to god my life must look like a series of random acts held together by nothing more than the fact that I am involved in them. Please believe there is some sort of method to it all...I need to believe that or I wouldn't even get out of bed in the morning.

Ok, i am running a bit late (when am I not these days) so I won't go into the change of plans for next year right now, but one of the things we have coming up is gonna be soooo cool. When we started planning the schools tour and only told a few people i was already getting excited and it's already been more successful than i ever hope to believe (it's not even fully happened yet...i just have complete faith in all my ideas, but am 100% prepared for them to falter at any point...i just work harder). I hope this idea works as well and we are able to get it off the ground. we will need your help. yes, you. i'll be in touch nearer the time.

Max x