For anyone who read yesterday's post, here's a quick update on what I was going on about. The street date for the Kerrang review will be Wednesday 13th Feb, so go check it out if you wanna read it.
We won the Battle Of The Bands thing last night - which is cool although I am always torn between thinking that judging different genres of music against each other is unfair, and my massively competitive ego which demands that I win. We were pretty laid back about the whole thing and just went about it like it was a normal show - we were the only band to turn up with any merch for sale (although nobody bought anything - why do kids in other bands never buy merch?...too poor i guess). Anyway - we'll be back there again playing another show for those guys at some point, I just don't know the date yet.
More stuff for you to watch/listen to - Hit The Lights have posted up a new demo on their MySpace. Their singer left last year and the guitarist is now singing for them and doing a pretty good job - check it out at www.myspace.com/hitthelights
. On the way home last night I watched the movie Gone Baby Gone
on my ipod, and it turned out to be pretty great...it was due out here over Christmas, but got postponed due to Madeleine McCann's disappearance (the central theme of the film is about a little girl being kidnapped). Go check out more info about it on imdb here
Got some bad news this morning about someone in my extended family, which sucks. I am very close with my immediate family - I have two sisters, both of whom have two kids and I see them all at least once a fortnight or so (and usually more often than that), but I am very guilty of not seeing my extended family (grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins etc.) enough. Some of my family got in touch via Facebook recently so I am going to make the effort and go see them soon, whether they like it or not. I guess if I can drive across the country with a load of equipment to see a room full of strangers I can get in the car and visit family. I shouldn't need bad news to remind me, but I get caught up in myself a lot, so something's gotta kick me in the ass every now and then.
Hope you're all ok,
Life Is Loud
So we just got confirmation today from our PR company that our album will be getting reviewed in Kerrang magazine on Feb 16th. It's probably just one of those quick little two-line reviews, and judging by the history they have of not being into my favourite pop-punk bands I don't have massively high hopes of seeing a long line of K's after our name (or any) - but just the fact that we are in there shows we've made something worth taking an interest in. It's weird to think that people will read the name of my band like I have to others done every week since I was a kid.
I remember sitting in a park in the middle of summer with Dan before we were even in a proper band and him passing me a Kerrang article about Sum 41 which said something like "another pop-punk band...do we need any more?" and we both said "yup, can't have too much of that" as we both toddled off home to get the album. I also have posters on my walls (yeah, yeah I know - what is this 1993?) from Kerrang - Dave Grohl and Hayley Williams are my current decoration.
In unrelated music news, I have been listening to some new stuff that people have posted on their MySpace pages. First up, Frank Turner has posted up a song called 'Photosynthesis' at www.myspace.com/frankturner
- I already know that I will love his new album which is called 'Love, Ire and Song' and comes out March 31st. He has tour dates up on his website at www.frank-turner.com
so go take a listen and check him out live. The other song I have been listening to a lot is 'Nine In The Afternoon', the new song from Panic At The Disco, check it out at www.myspace.com/panicatthedisco
I am off to London on Friday to see Paramore and New Found Glory - I'm really looking forward to the show, it's been a little while since we've been down to London and we're staying with some friends which is always good fun. Maybe this time Hayley Williams will finally stop being so short-sighted and realise that we were meant to be together and we can all stop worrying about it - we are like the Ross and Rachel of the pop-punk/emo world.
I will update a little more about me when I get a chance (ego much?), but I have to head out in a little while as we are playing at some Battle Of The Bands show later - read the archives for my opinions on these competitions (they are not favourable), and we only get to play 3 songs!?! It'll take us longer to set up than it will to play, what is that about?
Anyway, I will find out the street-date of the Kerrang review and let you know,
Catch you later, Max x
Most people are other people.
First off, thank you to the couple of people who read my last post and got in touch to check I was ok - it is always appreciated to know that there are friends out there who will look out for you, even if you don't have real problems, just the usual self-inflicted nihilistic shit that we all go through once in a while. I was chatting with friends recently about the people that you let into your life and how they can make you feel. I try and cut negative people out of my life as much as I can - anyone who is mean, spiteful and even people who have a constantly negative outlook on life no matter what their situation. It's almost a self-preservation technique, surround yourself with people who believe in themselves and that will rub off on you. Don't get me wrong, I am not talking about abandoning people if they start to feel down, I am always around for my friends - but some people are insistent on fucking their lives up and they want to take as many people with them as possible, don't let them get you, please.
I have posted about this before, but it's always worth repeating - I am proud of each and every one of my friends, they are all good, honest people who have my love and respect. Most of them are better people than me without a doubt, and that makes me want to be a better person. I know we all fuck up every once in a while and we all talk shit and say the wrong things, but at the end of the day I have friends that I met a lifetime ago and we're all still together after all these years when we could have walked away a million times - there's a reason we still talk/laugh/call/txt/hang-out/make fun of each other.
So back to me - I am desperate to start writing lyrics again but in all honesty it's making me a little nervous. I found the album incredibly hard to finish and I haven't written one word since then. I want new songs to tell better stories and try and be a bit less generic, but I also want them to be accessible and clever. Words are a blessing and a curse. I am thankful that I can articulate my feelings like the whiny emo-bitch I am, but sometimes the words just don't seem enough, usually in late-night conversations in parked cars - a set that will feature prominently in the movie of my life.
I read an Oscar Wilde quote recently that said "Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone elses opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation." I sometimes think this is me - like I'm a sponge soaking up the world around me that I just spit back out in a different accent. I just hope there is enough of the real me left in anything I do to make it worthwhile. I hope that I am one day able to create something that is uniquely me. I hope that I am able to work out where the debris of the things I have seen and heard stop and the real me starts. How ironic that it takes a quote to inspire that line of thought - must try harder I guess.
Right, back to real life again, see you all soon.
Note from the road.
Hey, so it's been a while since we spoke huh? Well it wasn't something you said, I have just been the usual mix of busy, ill, writing, rehearsing and trying to live my life as best I can. I'm writing this from the back of the van as our manager drives us through central leeds after a pretty cool show. It's the first time he's ever driven the van and kev, who has had a couple of pints and is therefore quite drunk, is nervously watching him to check he meets his stringent driving standards, it's very sweet to hear them in the front, like a teenage driving lesson.
I have been neglecting some of you online recently, I apologise for this but i've been trying to spend less time in front of my computer at the moment. It's kinda working, although it does remind that the real world is quite scary and it's why I retreat into work a lot of the time.
The soundtrack for this trip up north has been Fork & Knife by Brand New - who constantly make me feel a mixture of intense joy at how good they are and a burning melancholy at their desolate lyrics, and Robots In Disguise - a CD that someone gave me this week and has been running on my iPod pretty regularly. I am unsure how people function without an iPod, it provides me with so much happiness listening to my favourite songs and watching my favourite movies that it is used more than my brain as a method of entertainment and gaining information.
So in this little check-in, i'll provide you with a little update about what I have going on in my life. At the moment I am sorting out some stuff to go out to labels, waiting to hear back from our new PR agency about what it is exactly they've been doing, watching a lot of films at the cinema, spending too much money, having some great nights out (last friday night was really fun), played some cool shows (leeds, cambridge), played an empty show (norwich), written some new songs, written no new lyrics despite having quite a lot of ideas due to my current personal life - I will try and translate what I am up to into three minute pop songs as well as I can, being more nervous than I can remember being for a long time and cursing the inevitable side-effects of this.....in other words it's just the same shit, different day.
I hope you are doing better than me, I don't think it'd take too much right now. I seem to be veering between the highs and lows a little too easily at the moment which is brilliant and horrible at the same time. I told you real life scares me, the cocky bravado I cover my every move with is sometimes incredibly fragile and threatens to shatter and leave me exposed, and sometimes it's all I have to rely on and all I need to get me through.
No real news to report, so it's back to the rumble of the van and the ongoing threat of kev, who has now got into his bunk, falling on top of me during a sharp right turn. Is there no end to the fun?
A little jealous of the life I'm supposedly leading...
Hey - so after a prolonged christmas break I'm back at my computer typing things for you to read. I come devoid of any major news update - the festive period was fun, I saw a lot of old friends and spent time with my family which was all good. I got hold of a new iPod, which now holds my entire music collection...that might not sound like much, but it's one of the best things that' s happened to me in a while.
I am throwing myself back into work and the band at the same time, and doing fairly well. I am not really one for new years resolutions, because if something needs to be fixed, I don't see why you have to wait for a fixed point on a calendar to start, but I think I'm going to take this year a little more as it comes...I don't doubt myself very often and all I really want right now is to be pushed harder, on everything.
I will get a little more up-to-date with all the emails and myspace messages that I'm supposed to have answered and I'll post back with a more coherent message.
I hope christmas was good for you, and that this is the best year you've ever had.